I want to thank everyone for their comments, emails, and prayers recently. I am feeling much better than I was when I posted Tough Times. I have had several people tell me the Lord has brought me to their minds over this last week to pray for me. This is just one way I have seen God show His love for me. I have not always believed God loved me - I knew the Bible said so, but I didn't believe it in my heart. It may seem hard to believe, but it has been in the midst of infertility that I have come to know of God's unfailing love for me.
Last night we had dinner with our friends Philip and Joia, who we met when we were stationed at Eglin. Philip is here in DC for military training. We had a wonderful time with them and their children. Visit Joia's blog for some great pictures of our evening. I really need times like this with friends who allow me to have fun holding and playing with their kids. I have this fear that because it has been so long for us (over 4 and a half years of trying) that we will become so accustomed to our life without kids that we won't adjust when/if we finally have them. Times like last night reassure me that this fear is baseless. I still love being around children. Sometimes it hurts, but I still cherish these times.
Right now I am sitting in Panera in Bowie, MD using the free WiFi. John and I are getting ready to go to a domestic adoption information meeting at a church here in Bowie. The meeting is put on by Bethany Christian Adoption Services, the adoption agency we think we will use. Please pray for God's clear direction for John and I. We sense Him leading us to pursue domestic infant adoption, but we want to be sure. Thank you all for your prayers.