It may have seemed strange for me to say as I did here that the new year didn't really begin for me until January 14th, but it is absolutely how I felt. When I awoke on that day, it was like a weight had been lifted off of me. I know now that all the sadness and uncertainty I was experiencing were an "anniversary reaction." I felt so guilty for having these feelings when I should be excited about Joshua's homecoming.
The excitement that had been alluding me has finally come. In fact, I was almost giddy with excitement on Friday as I thought about the fact that this is the year we will bring Joshua home. As part of that giant leap forward, I gave my notice at work on that same day. I will be officially transitioning to my new role as a wife and homemaker (and soon to be stay-at-home mom!) on March 11th. I am so excited!
As I look ahead to this upcoming year, there is still some uncertainty, especially in regards to where we will be moving and when in the midst of all that Joshua will be coming home. Will we get our travel call before we move? My friend Joia wrote about having a word goal for the year which inspired me to choose my word for this year.
My word for 2011 is:
Definition of Trust
1 a : to place confidence : depend
b : to be confident : hope
2: to sell or deliver on credit
1 a : to commit or place in one's care or keeping : entrust
b : to permit to stay or go or to do something without fear or misgiving
2 a : to rely on the truthfulness or accuracy of : believe
b : to place confidence in : rely on
c : to hope or expect confidently
3 : to extend credit to
And my verse for this year,
"When I am afraid, I will trust in you." Psalm 56:3
The Lord is faithful and I know I can put my trust in Him for all that this year will bring.