Tuesday, August 2, 2011

A New Creation

Thanks to all who prayed for our home visit and individual interviews yesterday. It lasted about three and a half hours and I think everything went fairly well. But man did she dig deep into our backgrounds and family history. Our previous social worker mostly stuck with what was in our autobiographies. To say that John and I had difficult childhoods is an understatement. And she really delved into everything.  The thing is if she had not directly asked the questions, I would not have told her some of these things. But when directly asked about something, I knew I needed to be truthful regardless of the consequences. Our pastor had just preached on integrity and how seriously the Lord takes lying this past Sunday.

"The LORD detests lying lips, but he delights in men who are truthful." Proverbs 12:22 

It was emotionally exhausting. She even said as she was leaving that I might find myself feeling exhausted the rest of the day because it was a lot of "stuff" to bring out. I really appreciated her sensitivity and her assurance that everything was okay and that nothing we told her would be a problem. Convincing myself to take her at her word has been another matter entirely. For the rest of the day I just felt a heaviness in my heart, and an overall feeling of "yuck." I continually had to remind myself of the Truth:

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!" 2 Corinthians 5:17

I have been washed by the blood of Jesus and in Christ I am a new creation. Praise be to God!


A said...

So glad you are clinging to God's word right now! Hang in there (HUG)

thewonderfulhappens said...

It IS exhausting to dredge things up like that from the past!! Thanking God for all of His promises!

Surely said...

I'm so sorry that #1 u have to go thru the homestudy process again and #2 it was harder than the first! But I am glad that you are finding comfort and strength in the Lord.

Now, let's bring this kiddo home!!

Christy said...

Hugs! I missed this post the other day. So sorry it was tough. Thanks for the warning - we didn't find our first home study too difficult, it's good to know ahead of time that this one will be a bit rougher. Prayers for healing of the heaviness.

Jennifer said...

I'm sorry it was such an emotionally draining day. You can be proud that you did the right thing. :) Praying for you and hoping your little guy is home soon! Hugs!